I’m finally posting a blog after nearly four years of being away! This is such a huge step. I’ve always wanted to continue working on my blog, but so many things keep on distracting me from doing so.
In the last four years, my life has changed so much, mostly for the worse, but I’m trying to rebuild myself piece by piece. That’s probably one of the reasons why I’m resurrecting my blog – so that I have somewhere to place my crazy thoughts.
I honestly don’t know where to start. What has happened to me in the last four years? Hmmm…
- I traveled overseas every year, pampadagdag ng tatak sa passport. JK. So far, I’ve visited Singapore a number of times. I’ve also visited Cambodia and Vietnam two more times – one for vacation and another one for a conference. I also went to Johor, Malaysia to see Sanrio Hello Kitty Town, which was amazing by the way.
- I joined the (as of now) final leg of the Batangas Archaeological Project in April-May 2012 then joined the Ifugao Archaeological Project in June 2012, which gave me only a week’s worth of rest. I’ve been with IAP in 2014 and 2015 too.
- I’ve had my heart broken multiple times… by the same person.
- I’ve had three tattoos since last year.
- My mom is now in Guam. She left in 2013, and I’ve been adjusting since.
- I have a new dog. Well, I’m more like a foster mom. His name is Porky, a Shih Tzu who will turn four next month. Yay!
- I also have two more dogs. Fulton’s German Shepherds kids go by the name Fonzi and Ingrid. They are very naughty, energetic, and active. I wish I could walk them, but I’m too scared and weak. I try to play with them every time I arrive home. They like jumping, running, and horsing around. Fulton is absolutely not happy with all these changes. Check out their Instagram account here:
- I switched academic advisers. I’m now under Dr. Rebecca Crozier. She kicks my ass all the time, but I deserve it. My thesis has been in the works for the last x number of years. Hopefully, things will finally be done next year. I mean, I say it all the time, but hey, I need to stay positive, yes?
- Speaking of switching, I switched to a Macbook Air last year. I know. I feel like such a sell-out, but Macbook Air is actually very user-friendly. In my defence, it is the only Apple product I own at this point. I’m more of an Android fan, you see.
- I worked at a Catholic university and vowed never to do that again.
- I was betrayed by people I thought were friends and family. I never realised how much that hurt more than anything.
- I started going to the gym early this year. My schedule has been inconsistent since I got back from the field last August though. I tried circuit training the first few sessions until I realised I will never arrive early enough to do it before jam/combat classes.
- My depression got worse, but I’m bouncing back little by little. I’m a work in progress. (See what I did there?)
- I tried counselling once. I never came back because it was too expensive, and a broke grad student like me will never be able to afford regular sessions with a counsellor AND a psychiatrist. Seriously, the price of treating mental illness should be part of my country’s national agenda already!
- Most importantly, I turned thirty this year. I originally planned to have a Hello Kitty-themed Jollibee birthday party with guests bringing dog and cat food as gifts because I wanted to donate to PAWS. Unfortunately, someone broke up with me on my birthday month (I swear, August is always the worst month for me. How ironic). That definitely killed the celebratory vibe. My friends in graduate school surprised me though, and I must say, it ranks as one of the best birthdays ever.
I don’t really know why I’m back. The last few years of being depressed turned me into an anti-social. I’d like to think that I’m more of an ambivert because I equally enjoy being alone and being with friends, but I never knew I’d appreciate becoming a loner. I guess my mind gets so crazy sometimes that I need to give it time to find some peace and quiet.
I don’t really know what purpose this blog is going to serve. I know it’s not going to focus on a single topic like graduate school, dogs, gadgets, or travel. I want to write about all these things because they are important parts of my identity.
I’m not famous, and I don’t want to be. Given the choice, I would rather tell my stories anonymously because I’m not really sure my life is interesting. One thing I’m sure of, however, is that parts of my life are parts of your life too – and that is what makes this blog relatable. I’m just an average person, but I know that my story is your story, too, whether you’re a broke grad student, a (somewhat) tech savvy girl, a loving dog owner, or a depressed soul travelling this journey called life. So what better way to do that than to traverse the crazy road ahead together. *insert mushy music here*